Sunday, November 13, 2011
Why does this happen to me?
I entered a new high school in Ohio, last year, as a sopre, and I suffered extreme racism by kids and teachers. I have wished to scream at my abusers that IT IS NOT MY FAULT THAT I WAS BORN BROWN, but that would give them even more incentives to abuse me as they will see that they have stimulated me. I turned 16 of age last month, and I have been working out after I was bullied by white racists for being a "sand ****** terrorist" even though I have always been receptive to everyone. I am even thinking of converting from Islam because God doesn't seem to change my cirstances, so why should I suffer for following a God that is causing me harm here? However, I have always told my abusers that I am not a Muslim, but they still continue with their abuses of humiliation through name calling, physical harment, etc. Telling the teachers about their abuses would not yield any positive results--it might lead to an increase of bullying--because many of the kids have teachers as parents, and most teachers are also immanently racists because they have subtly or blatantly discriminated against me. Now that I am working out over the summer, I don't know if I should fight back next term, because if I do, I might get labeled as a terrorist by the CIA or other governmental agency. I am at among the lowest emotional tier possible for me, and I am really disgusted with existence. What should I do?
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